The familiar cold at the core, a slight breathlessness in the realization of a lack of meaningful connection, I have this creeping sensation I used to feel from back when I was younger. Except with age it is better managed and just a slight nag or tug than a total take over. What a waste of breath and energy. Sadness over being lonely is ....tedious and yet I am not immune.
I need to build up relationships and some sense of community to have a sense of belonging. Deeper personal relationships that are genuine and reciprocal.
My back injury has really stymied things, I really need to get stronger to feel the full force of life, my own grace returns every once and a while and I realize I have been in limbo living a half life. I must be brace and work on physical capacities, though I am encouraged by a return of functions.